i'll always love you.

nothing could change the things we've said to eachother or the things we've done to eachother. nothing could take away all the times we've had. the memories we've shared. nothing could take away my love for you, or the pain in my heart. i know it's impossible for us to be together. we've tried. again and again and again. we've failed. again and again and again. things happen for a reason though, right? i know you'll find better love, i promise. even though you won't speak to me, i hope you read this. and the two notes i wrote you. i love you so much, to the deepest part of my soul and back. <3

have an amazing life, my old love. <3

things change.

i never imagined in my whole life that the things i have gone through would be real. i never imagined getting in trouble with the law. i never imagined i'd fall in love with my bestfriend and be crushed by him too. i never imagined being a party girl, always on the go. i never imagined that someone i considered a brother to me would pass away at the age of 17 in a car accident. i never imagined that when i was 17 i would go through the most horrible pain ever, losing your own child. i never imagined i'd leave my childs father. i never imagined a guy laying his hands on me, or being lied to, cheated on and fucked over a million times. i never imagined graduating early or getting accepted to a college 1,500 miles away, willing to get me out of the town i grew up in.

what else will happen that i never imagined?