i don't understand.

i don't understand why we fight like we do. i don't understand why we put each other through the shit we do. i don't understand why you do the things you do. i don't understand myself, either. you are my bestfriend, my love. you are everything to me, but the fighting is not. i wish one day could go by, without us having second thoughts. i'm in love with you, but do you feel the same? it feels like you do, but sometimes i'm not sure what you feel anymore. we've been through the works, and i wouldn't be able to stand to lose you. i wish things could magically get better. but wishing isn't gonna work, and neither is magic. i wish that i could be more that i am for you. i want you to be able to look at me, and not see shame, or regret. i wish you wouldn't do the things you know upset me most, or at least try. even though we make each other angry, and feel like shit. even though we break each others hearts, i love you, and nothing will ever change that. <3